YEARN FOR YOUR TRUE SMILE.

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Title : HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR (:

“在春节来临之即，第一通M1特别推出《我认识大熊我骄傲》和《徐晓鸿认我,

我自豪》系列活动物凡活动期间，

从初一每晚午夜到窗前大喊“徐晓鸿（Alex）祝你幸福”9遍，

便有机会赢得2009元的话费。编辑短信“大熊，

我想请你吃饭”到_______ 就有机会和偶像零距离的接触或直接拨打电话聆听偶像

声音！

行动吧，机会在手中梦想在身边，心动不如行动，机不可失，失不再来！祝你黑皮牛

Year！”

My cousin is wonderful! He always have creative message every year.Celebrations without him will be boring.No one to crap with, to gamble with.Finally he is back to Singapore to celebrate with us.Cousin Yuney hope you are having a great time at Canberra (: Jun Kai will eat up your portion for you! (: haha lol

Can't wait to reunion with relatives tomorrow! Miss all my cousins!! Cards, Mahjong and snacks awaiting for us tomorrow :DD Can't wait to all Aunties traditional Hakka food :D

Last but not least, may everyone be wealth and happy! May all your wishes fulfil :D Smile always ((: HAPPY 牛 YEAR!

finally i realised the feeling wasn't there anymore.

you didnt say much, so i remain slient.

i'm always prepare to receive or sense anything that ain't right.

you deserve your own life. you deserve a good life, a good lady in your life (:

takecare, you will always in my heart.

Smile and be happy always,boy. (:

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Title : Jolly ride me ;

Whining while on the way to Orchard with Estee.Fool burst our mind out!We just can't accept the freaking facts.LOL!Anyway, that the fact.

bought a Lanvin Perfume.Sweet! (: Long pants.Hopefully everything blend well on that day.

Ice Monster with Estee and Esther.(: Make appointment with Nail Salon.Perhaps i shall just cancel my appointment.save money and shall DIY.Financial crisis now.*oneself.Idea was there and shall buy the nail polish tomorrow :D WOOT!

Visting St John Home tomorrow with AFS Entrepreneurship Club.Preparing O Nee for 200 elderly. great challenge for us.

4rd round of shopping tommorrow :D

crashed with sick bud.such a good timing.damn!

defeat by the slience.

even looking you from far, i'm satisfy.
i miss you badly, Leonard.

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Title : It's deep down, irreplacable. I'm Stingy ;

Speak slowly
I can't hear you
My mind keeps spinning
Closer and closer
To the rain on the roof
And the rain in my head
And the things that you said
Keep on sinking further ahead
But I'm stuck here
Getting misty over you
I'm alone on a bicycle for two

flood my days with thoughts.

does it happened too real?

or just another mind challenge games?

your immediate care that day really touched me.i swear.that day i really feel your warmth, your caring.but when i think twice, do you care for the sake of caring?happened to see?or just concerning a friend? i dont know.you just gave me mixed feeling. when i look at the pictures, i keep wondering are you attached?though there isnt any clue from your profile or msn.but from pictures, i start to wild guess.from near you look as though you are taking a ladies's handbag, 2 rootbeer pictures, saying i love this rootbeer float.does it equal to i love her?i really dont know.did you call other girls,"girl" too? i dont know.but i'm sure you did say to some girls.but the "girl" things i can confirm.now i'm twisting my fingers hoping i'm wrong.really wrong.girls well that cant be impossible. i hope you call simply for being friendly and close.i really dont know do you have close girlfriends and fall for them?gosh!questions keep popping into my head.i'm just too afraid to lose you.i'm scare you being close to how i wish i wont wild guess anymore.it's tiring.it impossible for me to get assurance from you.cause there isnt any reason for you to do.you have better things to do either.i'm just hoping all my thoughts are wrong.i must have trust in you.but do you still remember that night?what you had said to me?asking me to give you more time? perhaps i had given you too much time to give up.or perhaps you cant be bothered with what we said before? you left me clueless. i just wish you still remember me and our past.cause i can swear i wont forget.those school days, those nights, those outing, those small things you did.it's just too sweet for me to forget.i'm sorry.i'm stingy.i wont fall for others.just you.pardon me for hiding your images, your names deep down in my heart.your name are just too familiar in my memories.

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Title : i am SO happy ((((: ;

i appreciate all your hardships
i appreciate your kindness.
but
don't get overboard with your comments and your sacastic attitude.
i might be patience and tolerate your nonsenses.
but when things are beyond my limit, pardon me for being rude.
i'm totally sick and tired of it.
let me feel the warmth and happiness please.
must i really find a way to find happiness and warmth?
it need 2 hands to clap too.
i have tried but i failed.
i won't take initiatives to pleased you all anymore
BULLSHIT! NOT ANYMORE.
since you all can't find the trust on me, there's nothing i can say.
i swear i won't give a fucking damn on it.
you all don't deserve my good.
whatever you did, you say, i won't give a fucking care.

don't give me that fucking look.so what if i spill the things? come on! few chips! if you think that few chocolate chips MEAN SO MUCH to you, i'll pay.too bad, that ain't yours.HAHA!don't even test my patience. stop showing your fuck up face.you are worst than the cowdung.YUCKS! get your way off my sight. you screwed my lunch.

pardon me.

you taught me.

i learnt from it.

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Title : i'm tired ;

Spree recently at Town was great! :D finally 70% of the things i want on shopping list are granted! but still yet not satisfy.all right, which girl won't ask for more shopping bags on their wardrobe? Now, i'm waiting for Friday to come and polish my nails! :D lust for perm hair.alright shall wait for Ben's news (:

i can't find the trust, the bond anymore. the belonging wasn't there anymore.returning is a no way matter for me anymore.but asking me to help out in events, i will. i don't crave for any positions or memberships.i'm utterly disappointed and speechless. i wash my hand of this matter, this used to be a happy and lively place. thank for those days, friends (:

the conversations used to be long
the words used to be so touching
1/5 is a significant memories
but the memories left are always sweet and happy.
remember?

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i miss you.

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Title : You left it behind ;

Lesson ended early! :D Estee is disappointed her sucri wasn't in school this morning! fated luh! haha lol *kidding! Town-ed with Estee and Esther (: account will only be activate at 2pm.Walked around time reaches 2.Shopping list is in my mind but those items i wanted are either out of stock or sold.Damnit!Disappointed! Perhaps i shall shop often till i saw my dream bag :D Wanted a old school white shoes but there isn't any sight of it.damn!Walked past Adidas Original, this pair of San Smith caught my eyes.Prices are very reasonable and sort of what i like?Yup.Town spree this Fri! ((:

unspoken truths

things won't work well anymore.i wish i can ignore what you had written,what you had said, what you had done.but those are well kept inside.finding ways not to think of it but there no ways other than swallow the ache.you know yourself the best.i believe you had chosen the right path.there nothing i can say or to be done.it's too late for me to add on.if only i were to spare with some times, i believe i will work out with it.but things are just too late for me to spout nonsense. your path is right, she is right for you.believe in your intuition.shower her with all your love, care, concern and patience.pamper her.i bet, you will in her mind forever.if she were to break up with you, she will think twice. i believe in my intuition, you are eyeing someone and soon will be together. i believe in it.

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Title : My Ecstasy ;

BEST WISHES! MY DEAREST O LEVEL

FRIENDS! :DD

never thought of i start the video call with you.i was of course happy.glad to see you, since months we didnt meet out.i was damn scare.overall it's the first time i chat with you through video call.you told me you were shy.though i wasnt shy but really anxious.FIRST TIME! you show your spongebob, hiding your face. on the other hand, i always think you are eyeing other girl or even getting attached. your profile's picture shown 2 rootbeer, a person picture you from opposite. 2 rootbeers? a picture from opposite? things put together somehow will get a picture dating someone.just 2 rootbeers.unless only you and the other person ordered rootbeers. anw, your 2 pictures really makes me think of those situations. but really, i was happy to hear from you again. (: actually, before we start any conversations my mood sunk. i keep thinking are you attached? are you eyeing anyone? what if you really are?what will be my reactions? you make me think twice of our relationships.i treasure it.will you?

you bought me up for a rollercoaster ride.

high and down, high and down.

you rock my nights.

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Title : The feeling is dry ;

Doctor said my ankle now are sensitive to ache.damnit! No more cold drink.No more long distance walk.No more running. IMPOSSIBLE IMPOSSIBLE! anw,shall see how.lol haha

Went Pitshopcafe with Pei Wen, Pei Jing and Yi Xiang. Good place to slack and chat with friends. Variety of board games to choose.Sum up, good place to chill with friends (:

Walked around at city area.Headed home. (:

Weekends always end so fast.

希望聽到有人會提到你好不好?

if the bridge are broken, can it still be mend?

i wish it can.

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Title : Because of you ;

amount received is not as much as i thought. hopefully i still have some amount left by the end of the month.gosh!

Astons with Clique! :D walked around at PS.Friday is the only day for us to walk around, enjoying ourselves.Time table really tie us tight down.But for the sake of candying, it's rather worth uh? haha

Alright, spree won't be on Sunday for me. ): cash only will be able to withdraw on Tuesday.It's really killing me! thought of ways to spent money really can't sastify my needs.DAMNDAMNDAMN!

how are you? are you doing fine?
yearn to receive your news soon.

your images are running down deep in my mind.

~~imy.~~

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Title : I wish I could ;

IP Man yesterday with Pei Wen and Yi Xiang.Donnie Yen impressed me with his real Kung Fu and cool mindsets.WOOT!

Schedule is killing us! everyone whined like old women, old men.damn.

my 6th sense told me in the morning this time round i can see what i yearn for.And I'm right! Throughout the whole journey Les Sucre Candi is never out of my view.My eyes stick tight to Sucre.it's my Ecstasy! *rock my head hard.Name hang on my mouth for whole day.Wait.What am i doing? Damnit. I'm too crazy about it this time.Well, being fed with Ecstasy. (:

tolerance is getting limited.stay off my way.
i'm no longer reasonable.
take it or leave it.can't be bother anymore.

Orientations this friday!Getting excited! :D
Shopping list is longgg but spare time is short.

how have you been?
are you doing fine?
takecare. i meant it.
i wish i was there to look after,
your health, your life, your happiness threaten my feeling.

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Title : it's a hidden message ;

school starting soon!damnit!

goodbye nails,
goodbye endless sleep,
goodbye holidays.

give me a break,
i'm tired of this guessing game
i surrender.

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Title : your exist tied me down tight ;

celebration at Transtar, Hock Seng Building with colleagues.Alright, I'm working recently.reason to spill the bean out now is I'M FREE FROM TIGHT SCHEDULE :D. okay get back to point, mini clubbing in office.late for party and was force to drink Chivas with green tea.don't really like so added more green tea into it.i still prefer wine and beer to liquor (: Carlsberg is my first bottle coming up with Tiger.gosh! i can't believe myself drinking so much.damnit! camwhore with colleagues and their friends.they are too friendly till i was stunned.indulging myself on a massage chair with RnB pop songs.woot! some of them start to get drunk and talk nonsense.lol. colleague's friend start to vomit.he drank a lot of Martini before joining us.WOOT!

cabbed down to Carke Quay for 2nd round of clubbing.initially we were at Clinic but they didn't serve food so went to Indo Chine.Great place to drink and relax with a group of friends.I managed to get into their bars or should i say the waitress didn't give a damn? Anw, people say i look as though like 23.well that could be a good new too!meaning i can get into pub without any check.haha! get myself a lychee martini.not used to it strong mouthfeel but yeah.it taste good (: 猜拳 with Emerson and Edwin. should i label myself as 拳后 or just count myself being lucky? haha.xue zhen and hui ying played 海带.brought alot of laughter to us.xue zhen was just too excited and she break her fruit juice.LOAO! people were giggling when they were playing and shout loudly as though they were drunk. Jia Yi and Do Do (rather a cute name on a guy) went for clubbing.it's rather cheap.$25 enterance fee.camwhore again (: bar seems like closing soon so we intended to take cab home but tons of people were waiting so we walked down from Clarke Quay to Lavender.Saw Anthony, Kelvin, Kenneth, Kong Hwee and Wen Qin.damn happy luh! didn't get to see them for a month.and we actually bumped at SMU Uni.haha! guys off to slack at Esplanade.Jia Yi, Do Do, Benjamin cabbed home.Rest of us walked home.damnit man! super tired and brain don't really function well anymore.walked and walked.so near yet so far.reached home at 6am.bathe and knocked down dead on my bed.

alright PICTURES ((: