Date : Friday, October 31
Time : 16:33
Title : perhaps perhaps;

almost late for FHS.saw Kenneth ,Kong Hwee and Kelvin on train (: rushed for train, bus.who ask me to be a sleeping log.Ms Lin conduct swabbing practical. rather fast but time been delayed by Ms Priya, CARE session.drew a cuteeee stickman to Kong Hwee and force him to set as his DP.haha! make sure he did it! during lesson ,i start to haywire for no reason. of course he is speechless when he saw that cutee stickman.cause it tooo cute! lol


Estee, Esther, Alzena and i waited for Kong Hwee and Kelvin to come down and bused down Bugis for lunch.while Anthony, Kenneth, Wen Qin went to Seng Kang swimming pool.walked aroun Bugis with guys and Esther while Estee and Alzena went to Sentosa.kill time at Mac.talking crap and nonsense.walked around and walked home from Bugis.the feeling is great! i love being alone now! :D


sometimes i'm thinking what is the purpose of living?not that i'm going to do foolish stuffs. just don't get it.and from here obviously can see i'm lack of Buddhist knowledge.what i had learnt are not used wisely in my life now. why people need relationships to continue their life? is relationships really that important in this society?though it is important but why people need relationship to live on?




thinking of letting you go.but my heart and mind simply are out of my control.saw your profile and saw those comments.it makes me think alot.are you eyeing other girls? are you prepare to accept a new relationships after your ex? tears rolled automatically.i really wish we can go back to the past.spenting nights on phone.will you ever know how much i miss? you choose to chat with other people well i can't judge anything.while i'm wandering will we chat ,you are chatting with my BFF. you know when i heard that ,my mood really sunk to the deepest edge.why must we ended up like that?is it because of my words make you sick of me? or makes you hate me? if so please tell me.at least i give up wholeheartedly.just hope i can talk to you ans clarify everything.i had enough of waiting for nothing.you left an empty bottle to me.and i have to fill the bottle with your true words.can i?

Date : Thursday, October 30
Time : 19:19
Title : tears is hard to retrieve back;

did physical theory test.thank Mr Mani for the hints when going through of questions! :D wanted to run but since no one is running so yeah changed back and headed off to cafe 1 with Estee and Esther.power of absorption is strong today! of course must make use of it.


lunch break! and saw Estee's candy standing outside cafe 1 selling tickets for inter ITE College Talent Competitions.after lunch Twins and Gladys went off first to TnF Sport Meeting.soon guys and i left to Forum.saw the candy i used to stalk.heart pumped faster as usual. he is simply gorgeous and handsome :P haha! OMG~ but taken up by Estee.well haha!


in order not to misuse my power of absorption, i follow closing with Ms Loh prac today ,Daging Kambing! trained home with Estee talking crap.LOL!


cheek muscles are fully used today.shall conserve some of it.


takecare, bye.


there are too much things for me to find out. but whenever the truths are exposed ,tears is hard to retrieve.


i miss the those nights


asked someone close to me did you chat with him? and she tell you that he chatted with her recently and he did take the initiatives to talk to her.what kind of expression will you show? i'm not jealous of her.i'm won't envy her.cause i know there won't be any sparks.i just don't understand ,why we had been driften away so much? we used to be close and dearly.and now we are like stranger.why we must we become like that? what really had happened? must i take the initiatives and therefore we can chat? i really miss chatting with you really leonard. whenever i see you online, i always wish you will chat with me but it is still as calm as sea.how i wish the time didn't pass so fast.i miss you i miss you i miss you leonard! can we went back to the past? can i have more courage to talk to you? i just want to return to our past.

Date : Wednesday, October 29
Time : 19:37
Title : but my words don't come out straight;

paid my 110% of attention during FHS practical :D did swabbing experiments recently.FHP and FHS phrase test are on the way.OMG! hopefully all the test will be a fruitful one (: lunch break.Estee saw the guy we used to high together whenever we saw him. i used to stalk him like mad and now is Estee turn.haha! FHS lecture is killing me.Ms Priya spend half an hour revising the previous lecture ,though all the lesson are linked up but also no need to repeat ma! lol. okay peeps ,i'm not emo ,sad ,anti social.i'm tired. i'm quiet because i want to relax my mouth muscles.woot!


guys off to FHP practical test. best wishes (:


headed home with Estee and Esther.saw Hong Keng at bus stop and we start to CHAT with him. initially, we were talking about why he don't want to take a straight bus till Paya Lebar then change to other bus.and therefore our crap start here:

YH:"why you don't want to take bus 2 to Haig Road and then change to 155?
HK:"don't want luh ,i take 100"
YH & ESTHER:"might as well take direct bus ,so troublesome"
things getting really no link.
suddenly we talked till bus 700
YH:"have 700 meh? not 70 meh?"
HK:"have ,go....."
*forget the place
ESTEE:" 700??!"
HK:"ya ya 700"
ESTEE:" what? 700?! ,ei what is 700 in chinese uh?"
HK:" 700 in chinese is "七百" lor!"
*Laugh Our Ass Out!
ESTHER:" HK ,you say again?"
*she start to voice record.
HK:"700 in chinese is "七百" lor!"
*saw some Malays start to giggle.of course they understand luh!
YH:"ei ,say again lei!"
*okay he repeated.
YH:"orh.i will sent this to Ms Priya and Mr Goh. you will be debar.
ESTEE:"ya lor! expell uh"
YH:"so how's your plan?"
HK:" i will own up cause i say foul languages ,i will take the responsibility myself"
*erm...things getting like HAHA?
HK:"i realised our class have joker lei"
WE:"who who?!"
ESTHER:"me right?!"
ESTEE:"me right?!"
YH:"i know luh it me!"
aiya we luh!
HK:"ya lor ya lor"
when the bus came ,we ignore him! haha!


home sweet home (:


i think i know how to hide my trueself (:


i told myself i don't have the right to think or miss.he is simply too good for me. the conversations left still remain in my brain. but i'm still not over you.

Date : Tuesday, October 28
Time : 20:55
Title : the reasons;

FHP prac is a easy one. making "donut" but all our results end up as a muffins or biscuits.it taste hmmm..not bad too ,just like biscuits. Popeyes biscuits? the crust. feel really tired during practical. not depress ,emo nor anti social.haha!simply tired! maybe my expression had deceived everyone? whaha! i am a good actress! good at giving the signal to other people.woot! haha! saw Dorina :D i think we really gonna meet out somedays or have a lunch in school soon man!


off to TM,LJS for dinner :D walked around and trained home with Estee ,Esther ,David and Kong Hwee. happy trip home! i really can imagine *IF Kong Hwee and Estee were together.wahaha! anw ,it impossible! but the way they crap as though they are married can! haha! woot!


though the tattoo is removed ,the scars will still remain. is there any other reasons for me to remove?

Date : Monday, October 27
Time : 13:23
Title : happy birthday Gladys (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLADYS (:


may you be well and happy always! may your path be a brighter one! :D


indulging in the cool and cloudy weather (: wheee~ craving for Sushi! omgg! imagine a large plates of sushi in front.argh! i believed Sushi and i 有深仇大恨 ,if not why am i always crave to eat it? haha! how i wish i am born in Japan :D whaha! anw i should feel honoured and stop whining haha. i'm fortunate to born in Singapore too! having soo many great friends around me ,beside me. I LOVEE THEM! I'M FORTUNATE! and I HAVE TO STOP WHINING HOW PATHETIC I AM! haha!


takecare ,bye (:

getting over you really need alot of courage and determinations.and that what i lack of.
wanting to take up the initiatives to talk to you but i don't dare.and that what i lack of.

thinking and imagine are what i am doing everyday.that the only way and things i dare to do.

all i need is courage and words from you.but i know you won't give me anythings.

PS:school start tomorrow! argh~ sian tsk!

i'm OFMY.

Date : Sunday, October 26
Time : 23:41
Title : i'm always lying

this is definitely cute can! mini tanks on grass patch having war! it cute! and of course passerby stopped and have a look.

walked to Suntec City to meet up with Kenneth for dinner! Just Acia. almost every weekend we will have our dinner there.regular customers (:

slacked at Esplanade. nice scenery and cool breeze (inregular) (: indulge in that very moments. and all the memories flashed through. it's terrible and sweet. contridict. bused home with Kong Hwee.

pictures!

maybe she is tired.

memories stuck in my mind just like a lizard trap below a thick layer of paint.i'm really tired of waiting for nothing. all this while ,i'm hoping we can go back to the past but we just stuck as a stranger-friends statue. whenever i saw any significiant places ,i will think of you. didnt see you about for a month ,didnt have a proper chat with you for weeks. i thought i can survive without your accompany ,i'm wrong.probably i'm used to your exist. i rely on you alot. hoping to escape but brain just stuck in the past. all i want is more communications.but. i know ,i already lose you long time ago ,just that i'm not willing to give up and admit i had lose you. now ,i want to let it go ,but i cant. all i can do is ,pretend to give up on you.those feeling is killing me.piercing through my heart.will you even know how much tears run down my cheek? do you know how important you are to me? you dont know.i really have the urge to tell you how much i misses you.but when i think twice ,there isnt any nesscary for me to say it out.cause your feeling for me had already fade.i'm just a fool haha. seeing friends around me about to get together ,doing what we used to do ,my heart is sour but joy come out naturally.when friends shared how happy they are when with their boyfriend or crush ,again i think of the past we used to spend. you are really a scar in my heart which remain there forever. your voice ,your typing are what i misses everyday. i dont think i can get over you for months. i still miss you.

Date : Saturday, October 25
Time : 21:57
Title : I'm not over you.

I was blown away
What could I say
It all seemed to make sence .
Your takin away everything
And I can't do without.
I try to see the good in life.
The good things in life are hard to find.
We're blowin away, blownin away
Can we make this something good?
Well I'll try to do to it right this time around
It's not over,Try to do it right this time around
It's not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over.
I've taken all I can take
And I cannot wait
We're wastin too much time
Bein strong, holdin on
Can't let it bring us down
My life with you means everything
So I won't give up that easily
Blowin away blowin away
Can make this something good?
Cause it's all misunderstood?
Well I'll try to do to it right this time aroun
dIt's not over,
Try to do it right this time around
It's not overBut a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over.
You can't let this get away
Let it out, let it out
Don't get caught up in yourself
Let it out.
Let's start over
Well try to do to it right this time around
Its not over
But a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over.
Lets start over
Its not over
This love is killin me
But your the only one
It's not over

Date : Friday, October 24
Time : 18:33
Title :

Date : Wednesday, October 22
Time : 22:16
Title :

:P

Bday girl :D 6 years of friendships and still counting (:

I LOVEEE THEM :D

4D!



Gerald ,Nixon and Wei Bin :D

我只求见到你的笑 ,我只求你要快乐 ,要幸福答应我好吗?

Date : Tuesday, October 21
Time : 19:07
Title :

Date : Monday, October 20
Time : 21:39
Title :

妳的回話凌亂著 在這個時刻我想起噴泉旁的白鴿
甜蜜散落了情緒莫名的拉扯 我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌 假裝沒事了


時間過了 走了 愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時的不快樂 妳用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這 真的痛了


怎麼了 妳累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了
夢遠了開心與不開心一一細數著 妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 我都還記得


妳不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚乾了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢


妳的回話凌亂著 在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的 白鴿甜蜜散落了
情緒莫名的拉扯 我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌 假裝沒事了


時間過了走了 愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了 倦了 我哭了
離開時的不快樂 妳用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這 真的痛了


怎麼了 妳累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
開心與不開心一一細數著 妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻 我都還記得


妳不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚乾了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢


怎麼了 妳累了 說好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不說了 愛淡了 夢遠了
我都還記得
妳不等了 說好的 幸福呢
我錯了 淚乾了 放手了 後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著喵 要怎麼停呢

Date : Sunday, October 19
Time : 21:52
Title :

the cup is unfill now.
though the cup is semi filled
but as time goes by,
the cup will still evaporate.
no matter how much i pour,
so long i put the cup under the sunlight,
it will still evaporate.
but if there is a curtain to blind it,
the water level will still remain.
now.
the water is no longer under the sunlight.


no longer in sunlight .
and the cup is now in the dark room.
but
mosquitoes start to breed,
and i have to pour away.
again
cup left unfill.
but
what if the water is change frequently,
and there isn't any breed,
and make sure the water is in the dark,
isn't it great that the water is always fill and free from breeding?


will you understand my theory?
i wish the water can be overflow sometimes,
and i'm willing to clean up the mess,
so long it continue.
will i ever have this chance again?


i miss you.

Date : Saturday, October 18
Time : 23:08
Title :

meet Estee at Outram Park while waiting for Kenneth ,Kong Hwee and Wen Qin.Kong Hwee sleeping lor! PIG! after everyone reached trained down to Seng Kang and waited for Anthony to fetch us to Seng Kang Recreation Center.the pool is big and crowded. slack ,swim and rest are basically what we did.swam for 4 hours! my finger had a long contact with water and the skin stringe.left the guys at pool while Estee and i went off to clean up first.how i wish someone will replace me to bath.damn tired and restless.


off to Compass Point for dinner ,KFC.FULLED! so walked around before heading home.everyone is tired and shag.


alright nothing to write too.
takecare.bye.


your cold shoulder really treat me as though like enemy.what had i done? i smsed you ,no reply.chat with you on msn ,no reply.WHAT HAD I DONE? do you really hate me? why you have to avoid me? am i that irritating?am i that annoying? i take up the initiatives to talk to you because i wish to return to the past ,we used to have.can't you even give me a chance? i'm really disappointed and sad when you never reply my sms and msn.will you understand my heartache?your ignored really kills me.why you will treat me like that? even i tears will you know? do you know your importance in my heart?no matter what you say and did will affect my mood ,expression and life.i really hope you are not avoiding me.i'm praying hard you are just busy that why.Buddha please guide me through this darkness. Leonard you always make my world different ,up or low. I miss you ,Leonard.i really do.i always wish i have the courage to say this to you but words get stuck. you are the only one who decide my happiness and sadness.you are my soul.

are you avoiding me?

Date : Friday, October 17
Time : 22:33
Title :

Date : Thursday, October 16
Time : 21:47
Title :

Date : Wednesday, October 15
Time : 22:45
Title :

screw my dream!
screw everything!

Date :
Time : 20:08
Title :

The person who tagged you is?
MS CHUA CHERNG SHING ,BIMBO


Your relationship with him or her?
I H HER status


Your 5 impressions of him or her?
1. Crazzzy
2.Bimbo
3.Friendly
4.Caring
5.Strong (as in mentally and physcially)


The most memorable thing he or she has done for you?
Everything we did together?


The most memorable thing he or she has said to you?
I H YOU!


If he or she becomes your lover you will?
Erm..do i look like i'm not straight? HAHA!


If he or she becomes your lover, the thing he or she has to improve on will be?
Till now i think she is alright! no matter how bad she turn i still love her :D


If he or she becomes your enemy, you will?
That's impossible!


What you want to tell him or her now is?
Stay strong and take care! I will be there for you :D
Call me whenever you are bored! 24/7


Your overall impression of him or her is?
I LOVEEEE HER!


How do you think people will feel around you?
Hope it's not a bad one. HAHA!


The characters you love about yourself are?
Crazzzy! Talk crap! argh~


On the contrary, characters you hate about yourself are?
Emotional and Sensitive.


The most ideal person you want to be is?
MYSELF. why should i be someone else? everyone is unique (:


For people that care or like you, anything to say to them?


THANK YOU CLIQUE!


thank for giving me all unforgettable memories ,though there might be some misunderstandings and conflicts in between us.But no pain ,no gain! right?


THANK YOU TWINS!


thank for being the true friends :D spent almost everyday with you 2. you 2 never fail to cheer me up when i'm moody. always be there for me! without your humourous and crapping jokes ,i believe i can't open myself to everyone (: THANK YOU! I LOVEEE YOU 2 :D


THANK YOU EMO FOUR!


though we didnt have the chance to contact everyday or go out during weekends.this group of girls really are spiritual friends which i can't find in our society.Buddhist bring us together and we spent memorable days and times in camp or during sharing. the Vivo outing definitely is my happier day even spenting with you all! hope that we can stay in contact more often and EMO FOUR ALWAYS :D


*UPDATED!


Pass this quiz to 10 people who you wish to know how they feel.
1.Esther
2.Estee
3.Cherng Shing
4.Anthony
5.Kenneth
6.Kelvin
7.Kong Hwee
8.Leonard
9.Wen Qin
10.Xin Yi


Who is No. 6 having a relationship with?
Single.


Is No. 9 a male or female?
Male.


If No. 7 and No. 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
NO.They don't even know each other.HAHA!


What is No. 2 studying about?
Applied Food Science


When was the last time you had a chat with No. 3?
Today!


What kind of music/band does No. 8 like?



Does No. 1 have any siblings?
Yeah. Twin sister ,elder sister and lil brother.


Will you woo No. 3?
NOPE. BFF!


How 'bout No. 7?
YO BRO!


Is No. 4 single?
Yeah.


What is the surname of No. 5?
Mr ANG.


What is a hobby of No. 10?
Staring at Jay Chou's poster and start to dream~ (kidding!)


Does No. 5 and No. 9 get along well?
Yeah! Clique! Teammates!


Where is No. 2 studying at?
College East.


Talk about something for No. 1
Great listener ,calm ,pretty and understanding! I LOVE HER :D


Have you tried developing feelings for No. 8?
Want to know uh? Ask me lor. LOL!


Where does No. 9 live?
Tampines.


What colour does No. 4 like?
Red.


Are No. 1 and 5 best friends?
Yup.


Does No. 1 have any pets?
Yeah! A white Snawzer ,Snowy.It's cute!


Is No. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
When he sing 笨小孩 OMG sooo HOT can! LOL!


What is No. 10 doing now?
Resting?


This quiz is fun and exciting!WOOT! thank for the tag! Cherng Shing :D

Date : Tuesday, October 14
Time : 19:28
Title :

things happened then was great and stable
we fought all ways to communicate ,no matter in day or night
seeing you around is a relieved ,a joyful moment
but
when you left to somewhere that really can fufill your dreams ,your ambitions
everything is crashed


when times goes by i realised there isnt a need for me to leave you back
so long your direction in life is on the right path
i know that there are always ways for us to stay contact
at first everything were just like the past.
you made my night bright that day ,that moment ,that very minutes


who knows
things happened now is no longer great and stable
rocking.
there are always ways for us to stay in contact
but things turn up to be opposite
whenever you are online
i just hope you will talk to me
there are few percentage you will take initiatives
if not we just didnt even talk


unexplainable feelings just stuck in between my mouth and throat
wanted to say but fingers turn stiff
thoughts went blank


i have a lot to say to you but who will be the one who give me courage and support
i dont ask much from you
all i want from you is to understand me
shall we bring the past back to the present?


now you know how much you mean to me?
will you ever get it?
will you try to know more?


i'm dying to know your answer.

Date : Monday, October 13
Time : 19:27
Title :

Date : Sunday, October 12
Time : 19:29
Title :

planned to go swimming today.but i remembered my goggles break into half and i didnt buy yesterday.tsk! so yeah stayed at home all while.since my plan to swimming pool failed ,thinking should i ask dad to buy me a pair of white shoes..but he went out alone without asking me. argh! why i want a pair of white shoes? i dont know why too.probably it matches well with school uniform? kinda contridict ,during secondary school days hoping can wear fanciful shoes and now i miss wearing white shoes..LOL!

mood sunk for no reason.damn shit! can feel the cold and just cold feeling.the one who know my dark secrets chatted with me ,Min Hui haha stupid! then Xin Yi :D exchanged my old secret with her new one ,it's worth yeah! woot! haha i bet she is missing her navy hunk uh? haha! shall find one day where Xin Yi,Cherng Shing and I are free.Spreeee~


miss the past few weeks.time don't fly ,days teleport.HAHA! kinda excited for school tomorrow :D staying at home really kills me! though schooling can be quite boring and tiring but isnt it better rather than rotting uh? i miss mates ,i miss everyone! :O shall enjoy my very very last holiday before school really start. somehow miss Japanese Food Stall. HAHA! SPICY RAMEN!!!! anw ,time to mug hard! major exams round the corner too.shit!


TAKECARE! BYE!

WTH! when school going to reopen ,down with cough.argh!!!! freak! anw gonna force myself to sleep early cause my bio-clock is already screw!aaargh!


跌倒了再爬起来 ,拍一怕背后告诉自己别再犯错了.再来一次也没关系.始终我学会了自己跌倒自己爬呀 :D

Date : Saturday, October 11
Time : 23:58
Title :

Date : Friday, October 10
Time : 19:29
Title :

Date : Thursday, October 9
Time : 17:34
Title :

Date : Monday, October 6
Time : 22:10
Title :

random :P

Date : Sunday, October 5
Time : 19:46
Title :

Date : Saturday, October 4
Time : 22:43
Title :

Date : Friday, October 3
Time : 22:42
Title :

Date : Thursday, October 2
Time : 22:20
Title :

Date : Wednesday, October 1
Time : 19:28
Title :