Date : Saturday, January 5
Time : 21:41
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i'm sorry that i had broken my promise that i shan't be going back but i went back...okay..and i apologise that i had made you angry...well i dont think i need to explain why i went back..so yup...not going back=not going to bodhgaya..well okay...i shall go to Bodgaya when i'm richer...when i left ,i feel hurt?no. angry?a bit no sense of belonging?probably...o well,i will just make meself clear over here...you no need to apologise or asking me to go back or whatever,this is the path i chose..and i wont be back unless there is any events...so yup..we still can go out as a group...contact soon!dudes! :)

well probably my feeling is complicated,so when i reached home,i somehow throw tantrum at my parents and i cried...probably i try not to cry on my way home?well i just hate coming home..and i hate my mum saying stuffs(probably michelle and lindy know) argh!! its not that i want to throw tantrum or what..its that i feel very complicated and you still asked me to do stuffs?argh!you just dont understand me well,though you are my mum..i didnt tell you my problems is because you dont understand.when i want to tell you about my life,you pretend to fall asleep..how do you want me to do or say?i kept everything in my heart and you know how much i had suffered?NO! i know that i cant blame you..but do you know that i really feel hurt and sad?you know that i'm already very sad that i didnt make it to sec 5 and now you repeated it...you know how much tears had rolled down my cheeks?

where do i belongs to...?its a myth...